The opposite of TITIK!!

Ha!! I have a backward TITIK!! Meaning, I found something that I wished I knew, and I am beginning to understand it!
Ok, I had an opportunity to be blunt, very honest with a family member last week. It didn't go well. The family member asked me what I thought, so I took a deep breath and jumped. I am confident in what I said. What I said was honest, but not brutal. I used tact and considered the other persons feelings as best as I could. But the family member is not happy. I still believe that honesty is the key, but I began thinking about it from a biblical perspective last night. When I was a little girl, I would read stories in the old testament, and as much as I liked the stories that Jesus told, I always wondered why he just didn't spell it out, plain and simple. I figured it wouldn't take the disciples so long to 'get it' if Jesus just told them point blank what needed to be said. But a very good point was made to me last night by a person close to me.......the family member I was honest to, couldn't handle it. The truth was too much. If the truth had been told to that family member by a stranger, the truth might have been accepted and listened to. The truth, coming from me was not accepted. As I lay in bed last night, thinking about all the events that have led up to my becoming more honest, I found that I still believe in honesty and communication. I reflected how Jesus got His point across when He was asked questions, and He told stories, lots and lots of stories. I am not saying I should tell stories, but all this made me think that, as a human, can I handle the truth about me? When I ask a question, do I really want to hear the answer, if the answer doesn't line up to what I think it should? I also thought about the Eastern cultures, and all the stories the leaders tell to help someone see a truth. The concept of truth and therapy even, through stories is an old concept. Why is it I am just catching that?!
Anyways, these are my thoughts for today. Happy Tuesday.

It's Monday morning!

Good morning to me!
I woke up this morning to a dreadful fog and had trouble getting to work! Crazy state that I live in!! Snow and ice, fog and rain, 50 degrees difference and all in two weeks! Wow!
Anyways......
Hubby and I had a wonderful quiet weekend at home. We ventured out to find out if we could survive the aisles of the local grocery store chain. Escaping with lives in hand, and a few groceries, we returned to the quiet shelter of our peaceful, non-crowded home. Unfortunatly we wasted several hours, and I don't how many I.Q. points, watching stupid movies on Saturday. Sigh. Why, when the movie is OBVIOUSLY stupid, do we not turn it off? Are we sick? No, I like to think I am forever optimistic, believing the end of such movies will turn the whole film around and I will not have wasted 2 hours of my life. But it's always a disaster. Never has the ending of a stupid movie saved the stupid movie! Does that make sense? Well, to me it does. All of this leads to a TITIK!!!
3. Stupid movies waste time!!! Turn it off!!!
Again, I know to turn off the stupid movie!!! I think this weekend hubby and I will make a pact,
no movies this weekend!!!

Anybody want a peanut?

On this fine Friday morning, I made it all the way to work before I realized that I had forgotten my cell phone at home. In the kind of job I currently work, a cell phone is a must. It's going to be a quiet day. It's going to be a GOOD day!!
Today, so far, I have not one profound TITIK! At least, not yet! But the day is young and my brain is full of....well, fun little things. For example, I have a scene from one of my all-time favorite movies running through my little brain. Go with me there........
The scene opens on a quiet ocean setting, as an expanse of water fills the screen and a ship floats into view. I can hear the creaking of the ship as it rocks gently with the sway of the water. I hear the water lapping playfully against the sideboards. Out of the quiet, a high pitched voice on board the ship yells an order to the crew. The crew is made of two men, one, a giant of a man, monstrous to look at but gentle in spirit, the other a Spaniard, quick with the sword, revenge consuming his soul. The crew turn to look at one another, and with a glint of mischief in their eyes, begin a conversation in rhyme. But, instead of hearing the voices of the men, I hear my two sisters, like a voice over, reciting the lines, word for word, from memory. The scene is just too comical for me!!! My sisters and I are movie buffs, reciting lines from our favorite movies to fit in everyday situations. We laugh alot. I don't know why the scene from this particular movie came into mind this morning, but I started the day with a laugh! In my minds eye, I see my youngest sister, standing in a triumphant pose, reciting the last rhyme of the scene, "Anybody want a peanut?!!!!" Happy Friday to me!!

second TITIK!!

2. being goofy, childish, or laughing loudly is NOT STUPID!! IT'S THERAPEUTIC!!
I thought I knew this.....but I didn't!!! Can you yell an embarrassing word at the top of your lungs for the fun of it?! Well, after several attempts in a non-crowded restaurant, I triumphed!! Thus I now KNOW what it is like to be goofy AND childish for no reason, no bets to be won, just for the sake of laughter. It was refreshing, honest and one step toward being free. Of course, for the mature that might be reading this, I do know the boundaries and lines that should not be crossed for manner's sake. I do rather enjoy going to restaurants, and would like to continue to be allowed in them!!

First truth.....

After deciding to start a blog, and already having ideas to write about, I was hit with a HUGE, new TITIK(thing I thought I knew) to write about.
1. Being nice is NOT always the answer.
You know, as a kid, my mom always told me to be nice. I guess I had a tendency to be mean, especially when it involved my siblings. Maybe later on I will blog about that, but for now, I will try and stay focused!
I was on the phone with my mom, just calling to touch base, see how she was doing. The conversation led to a heavy discussion that I found myself wondering if I was prepared for. Normally I would keep my mouth shut, afraid to sound ignorant, or simply just wanting to be nice. I felt compelled to be blunt....really blunt. If I can't be honest with those I care about most, then in my mind, that makes me a liar. I cannot allow myself to lie anymore, not for me or for anyone.
I was in the middle of this serious contemplation, when, out no where, my wonderful, goofy, little sister comes skipping, literally skipping, through my door. She has the biggest grin on her face, hugs my neck and states she is in a goofy mood, and that she loves me! Thank God for goofiness. Goofiness leads to the next TITIK:
2. Being goofy, childish, laughing loud, etc. is NOT STUPID!!!!IT'S THERAPEUTIC!!

Hmmmm....

Good morning to me. I suppose I should write a few things here to remind myself of exactly why I started this blog.
"Life is short." I am younger, so this saying has been hard for me to really take seriously. But as of last night, I get it. All factors that play into what makes up the everyday steps of my 'life' fell into perfect alignment, and duh, I get it. I have discovered there are truths and lies out in this wide world that I have believed my entire life, some of which, I held to fastly, and some, I only believed in half-heartedly. So, this blog is about me exploring the beliefs, morals, traditions and 'just because' influences of my life, and how I live my life. I have to go now, but this blog could prove interesting and much cheaper than a therapist!